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It's the day you've been waiting for. Just a small wedding at your local church, but you finally get to see the woman you love in her wedding dress. Today, the two of you will pledge your love for one another. Before the ceremony, you slip away from the photographer, wanting to make sure your bride is okay and maybe get a glimpse of her in her gown... but when you find her broken down in distraught sobs, you know that she is far from all right.

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[Part1](https://www.reddit.com/r/ASMRScriptHaven/comments/13w4zy1/f4a_exmafia_bartender_shares_her_past_reverse/)

[Part2](https://www.reddit.com/r/ASMRScriptHaven/comments/14y6eoa/f4a_comforting_your_exmafia_girlfriend_pt2_older/)

[Part3](https://www.reddit.com/r/ASMRScriptHaven/comments/180xjaa/f4a_meeting_your_exmobster_girlfriends_dad_pt3/)

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Mob girl is getting ready for her wedding. She's looking in a mirror.

Oh my God I'm actually doing this. I'm actually getting married.

It's ok, it's ok.

I can do this. I already put on the dress. I got my hair done. I'm absolutely gorgeous.

I can go out there and I can face them. All that I have to do is go out there, say “I do” and kiss them. I'm going to grab the greatest thing in my life and I'll never let it go. I'm allowed to be happy. I am allowed to be happy. I can put the past behind me. I am allowed to be happy.

I can't believe I'm here. This seems so unreal. It just seems like a dream.

Oh my god none of this is real is it? The bells are gonna ring and I’m going to wake up in my bunk back in Indiana.

There's no way, this can't be real. I dreamt all this up. Nobody like that could love someone like me.

I can't just be forgiven like this! This has to be a dream.

Panic Attack

Thisisntreal

Thisisntreal

Thisisntreal

Thisisntreal

Ok ok get a grip Sophie. Focus on something you can touch.

This rose is white. It has thorns. It smells soft. It's beautiful and it's afraid to be touched. I'm on the ground. I'm alive.

Oh my god I'm alive.

Sobbing

Listener enters

Oh oh no no

No no you gotta go you gotta go you can't see me like this. Im so sorry I’m so sorry I’m so sorry

Listener embraces them

No no dont dont pill me in I’m gonna get snot all over you. I'm gonna-

Sobbing

Deep breath

This isn't right. I don't deserve this, I don't deserve you. You can't go through with this. You can't do this to yourself.

I’ll only let you down. I know you see something in me, but I just can't. I'm so afraid that I’ll hurt you. I can't go through with this. You have to walk away. I’m not strong enough. I'm not strong enough to be with you.

I’m old and tired and my life passed me by long ago. You’re so warm and kind and wonderful. You can't pick me. It's not right. It’s not fair. I hurt people! I caused so much pain. I need to be punished for what I did, not rewarded with-with you!

Listener says that they have to choose to be happy.

I don't understand what you mean? I have to choose? Of course I’d choose to be with you! But it's not that simple.

I want you so bad it hurts. I can't imagine my life without you in it, not anymore. But you can’t. I can't drag you down with me.

I-I I’m sorry. I’m sorry I know we’ve talked about this. I just- I just can't shake this idea that you'd be so much happier if you broke it off with me. I know it's crazy, but I'm just so scared. I'm so afraid that you'll wake up ten years from now and regret your choice. I'm only gonna get older. My hair is only gonna get more grey and my skin is only going to wrinkle up more. I spent my best years in a prison and it messed me up. I'm broken. And it's all my fault.

Softer Sobbing

I-I need to choose to be happy. I need to choose to give myself mercy. I am better than I think I am. I am better than I think I am.

That's what the therapist told me to say. I'm glad you pushed me to start seeing her, she's really helped.

The only one who can forgive my sins is me. I’m sorry, I'm making this about me again. You have every right to love me. And I have every right to love you.

Please just hold me for a moment.

You look incredible today. Just incredible. So much better than I imagined. And I imagined a lot.

Do I look ok?

Oh my God I just ruined my makeup didn't I?

Listener compliments them

Stop, please. Don't compliment me, I can't take it. You're too damned sweet. I don't get how we grew up on the same fucking planet. If I'd known you as a kid I'd have beaten you up every day. Taken your lunch money and stuff.

Probably still would have fallen in love with you though.

It's so weird to think about the past when I'm with you. Everything has changed, and it's only you that matters. You gave me hope.

I don't think you realize how painful hope can be. At least for somebody like me. I don't know if you can ever understand just how much it hurts to hope after so many years of despair. It's like I'm some slimy little worm that lived under a rock and you came along and pulled the rock away. And now the light burns.

Allowing myself to hope is allowing myself to be hurt. It's two sides of the same coin. One of the guys that worked for me back in the day said that hope is just the set-up for a joke, and the punchline is when it's ripped away from you.

But you know what? I love it, even the pain, it's just I'm just so afraid.

Can you believe it? Big scary criminal GF is afraid? It's true. I've never been so afraid. I've been shot at, I've been shanked, but I've never been this scared.

Look at me, look at with those warm bright eyes and promise me that I'm really what you want.

I know you've said it, but please just for me. Say it one more time and I'll never question you again. I'll go out there, give you the greatest kiss of your life and I'll dance with you until the stars go dim. I'll leave the past behind me and we'll take whatever the world gives us. A new me and the same old you, together. But I want to hear it one more time. Tell me you want me one final time. And I'm yours body and soul. I promise, I'll never question you about this again.

Listener declares love

I love you too.

Smooch

That's a preview of the big one, you better get ready, because I'm not going anywhere.

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