I (27F) had my first child in April of this year. Shortly after, I began to suffer with almost constant anxiety and panic attacks, with the only breaks being filled with debilitating depression. In addition to these, I was diagnosed with Dysphoric Milk Ejection Reflex (D-MER), which is when the body has severe negative physiological reactions to lactation or milk letdown. For me, this manifested itself as a deep gut, sickening fight-or-flight response that made me feel as though I and my baby were in mortal danger. It was some of the most isolating and intensely scary times of my life.

I have since been medicated, receive therapy regularly, and have an incredible support system. I am able to function most days as normal, with constant mild anxiety, and occasional anxiety attacks when triggered. My baby is a healthy, hilarious 8.5 month old now.

I want to open up this dialogue to help destigmatize mental health struggles, especially for new mothers who are already recovering from enough.