I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder at 15 and have struggled with trauma since I was three years old. Despite my chaotic life and inability to stay organized or finish projects, I excelled academically and earned a full-ride scholarship to college. But things fell apart when I couldn’t maintain the same performance, leaving me questioning if I had ADHD—or even autism, as others suspected.

After saving up for an intensive three-month psychological assessment, I finally have answers. The diagnosis I received was both shocking and devastating. I went in hoping to come out with ADHD so I could be medicated, but instead I came out as a sociopath and narcissist(which I didn’t know). I knew about my bipolar, borderline, and c-ptsd was a maybe (bc I thought maybe dissociative Identity disorder).

I’ve been through multiple in-patient centers that have costed over $70k, been in and out of therapy since five years old, and lost my mom brother and raised in domestic violence. Nothing has ever quite worked except bipolar meds - but it couldn’t explain everything else.

I’m here to share my journey, answer your questions, and talk about what it’s like to navigate life with mental health challenges, misdiagnoses, and self-discovery. I’ve gotten really terrible reactions from loved ones and friends which has helped narrow down who. I can really trust and come to with this info.

I’m hoping to destigmatize cluster b personality types. Also to give an insight to the experience of a female sociopath/narcissist.

Ask me anything. :)

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Edit again for people who don’t understand where this diagnosis came from- here’s a copy paste of the different tests I went through :

Here’s a copy paste from the report I was given and the different tests i endured to achieve this diagnosis:

Evaluation Techniques ● The Abbreviated Autism Spectrum Quotient (AQ-Short) – 11/15/2024 ● Adverse Childhood Experiences (ACEs) Questionnaire - 11/15/2024 ● Barkley Adult ADHD Rating Scale—IV (BAARS-IV): ○ Other-Report Childhood Symptoms: my other friend from elementary took a survey (Friend)– 11/24/2024 Confidential Psychological Report: (my name) Page 2 of 31 ○ Other-Report Current Symptoms: my friend’s survey on my behavior (Friend)– 11/15/2024 ○ Self-Report Childhood Symptoms – 11/15/2024 ○ Self-Report Current Symptoms – 11/15/2024 ● Brown Executive Function/Attention Scales (Brown EF/A) – 11/15/2024 ● Camouflaging Autistic Traits Questionnaire (CAT-Q) - 11/15/2024 ● Clinical Interview with (my name) – 11/8/2024 ● Delis-Kaplan Executive Function System (D-KEFS), partial – 11/22/2024 ● Millon Clinical Multiaxial Inventory—IV (MCMI-IV) – 11/15/2024 ● Monteiro Interview Guidelines for Diagnosing the Autism Spectrum, Second Edition (MIGDAS-2) – 11/15/2024 ● Personality Assessment Inventory (PAI) – 11/15/2024 ● Social Responsiveness Scale - Second Edition (SRS-2) ○ Adult Self Report Form- 11/15/2024 ● Trauma Symptom Inventory - 2 (TSI-2) – 11/15/2024 ● Wechsler Adult Intelligence Scale 4th Edition (WAIS-IV) – 11/22/2024 ● Wechsler Memory Scale, Fourth Edition (WMS-IV), partial - 11/22/2024