I am 24 in this November.

Whats most traumatizing was:

Just having nothing and nobody, at some point it grows on you and you have no idea wtf you are doing in this life.

You become easily mad because you lack literally food so I did stuff which I can't talk about and broke a glass bottle on my big bro which is dear to me, which is unimaginable, and I cried about it multiple times later. He saved my life multiple times and was just awesome to me, and still this happened. It is a bit more complicated obviously, but shit gets bad when you have no food and you are too shy to ask for help as you get rejected a bunch of times, we are not the resilient type shit not giving a fuck, we are more shy type shit, nobody likes to get rejected, and we are not super charismatic, especially not when we are homeless. We also got drugged with fentanyl by an old lady. Almost got stabbed to death, got our tent knifed and phone stolen from it while I was sleeping. Also seeing all kids at the park having fun and kissing and doing youth activities like that made me jealous as fuck as I am homeless I wouldn't dare touch a girl, and my mood is not exactly uplifted and confident, even though I did hit it off with a couple of girls, which makes me really confident overall in a way, its good positive reinforcement, there were epic most beautiful days even being homeless with my big bro, and there were also horror nights. I love my big bro