I was raised in a very strict upbringing (JW). There was a lot of shame and guilt towards sex in general. Met my ex husband when I was 19, was with him for 15 years. I was very backwards with my view of sex and he didnt know how to handle it or be supportive . He cheated on me and we got a divorce a few years ago. When I was with him I was a totally different person. Very reserved and unsure about myself. Low self esteem. Sex was a stressful element in our relationship for years.

After we divorced I was forced to start dating again, in a way different climate than I was used to. He was the only person I'd ever had sex with and the feeling of going back into the dating/hookup world (as a 34 y/o!) was terrifying.

It's been 2 years since the divorce. After a lot of self growth and a few cringy one night stands, I am such a different person. I started my reddit, Twitter, and an OF that shows a lot of my body. Something I never thought I'd do. But it was empowering! I feel so much more comfortable with myself, my body, and being a sexual person than I ever have been. It's a good feeling 😁. AMA