So I (YA,F) have been married for a while to my partner(A,F). We have had a wonderful marriage and recently decided to open the relationship to add a little spice to life. My partner immediately got pregnant after her first date, which didn't bother me, except for the fact that I HATE children, cannot stand to even be in the same room as one. So before the birth, partner and I sat down and decided if she wanted to keep the child, she'd have to keep them exclusively in what used to be her office (converted to a nursery) and therefore sleep in there until they were sleeping through the night (I am one of the highest in my career and can't risk the constant up and down risking my sleep). So I paid to decorate the new nursery and arrange furniture (including a brand new Murphey bed for her) and then that was it. The other parent to the baby went with for the birth and my partner came home with not only one baby but twins. Now the first night she was settling down for the night after feeding and changing the kids and BOOM, bed malfunctions, k*ling her immediately. Now here's where I may be the llama... I am thinking about giving her children up for adoption, or giving them over to the other parent. Part of me doesn't want to because I feel like it'll look bad but I was very clear that I did not want to have any kids. So, AITA?