OK so a little bit ago, about the beginning if 2024 I(m20) ended up starting to date my then GF, let's call her Stacy(f23)

Stacy and I had met on tinder and after 5 months of talking started dating, we had both over this time confided in each other some genuine hurtful things about our pasts and ourselves, my issues with my body and self confidence namely and her own issues came into play, namely her exes having caused her serious strife in her life.

Either way we has set clear boundaries to each other, most namely gor me that she wouldn't try to force or convince me to unadd my female friends after a argument we had, namely over that subject in question, her wanting me to as a proof of loyalty to her, me arguing that they were my friends and it had become a problem namely because I didn't have many growing up but these bonds with these friends were very important to me, eventually we got it settled.

However after a while without seeing each other we started to go on a few more dates, one close go me, one close to her since we lived a good few hours away from each other.

Eventually on a time for a date to be close to her she set the place to be somewhere quite far away, nearly an hour past where she lived, which would bring it to a nearly 5 hour drive for if I was to go there, unfortunately I don't have a licence so I would have to take public transport to there, which would round to nearly 8 hours one way for me.

After this we fell into another big argument, every night for 4 days she would call me until 4 in the morning, crying and begging me to go there with her, I explained repeatedly that I couldn't the there and back was too long.

For context I wasn't going to be sleeping there, I was going to be seeing her for roughly 30 minutes before having to leave and take the travel back, during this I eventually sent her a text at roughly 6 in the morning about needing space and needing to just think about things before blocking her, cowardly I know but I felt if I didn't do It then then I would be guilt tripped and begged into staying.

That lasted a day before she started messaging as many members of my family as she could asking and begging about me.

I had unblocked her and asked her wtf she gave about 6 different reasons why she did it but I had felt it was a massive invasion of my privacy and told her as such.

This is where a big problem came up, every argument I had to concede defeat on some level due to her threatening self harm after each of them, every time.

I didn't end up going to the date and told her as much a week in advance, I wasn't able to stay up for each time she'd call me late into the night as I have work early, this started to make her call me when I was at work.

She would say things like how I'm probably cheating on her and it's ok she knows she's not the best, I denied this constantly, but eventually did something where I feel like I was the asshole here.

She had said "I'm probably with those other slots you hang out with"

This led me to leave my work station for about 15 minutes, and do nothing but yell at her again and again, letting loose about how much she was causing me anxiety that I felt like a hostage that I couldn't do anything without being judged by her before telling her its over and to never contact me or my family.

I blocked her that day, but a few days later found out she did attempt suicide and was hospitalised, her family has been blaming me ever since.

So AITA