Hi, first time positing.

So my Brother died on the 4th May last year. I’m still grieving and I was just going to work it so that I’m not on my own with my thoughts etc. I was speaking to my Mum today and I get the impression that she wants me to be there.

The thing is I work a casual job so I’m not guaranteed money or shifts. I’d be losing money if I don’t work it.

Part of me wants to be there with my Family and have that time with them but at the same time I suffer with Depression etc and just the thought of it coming up is just making me feel shit so I’d rather have my mind on other things. As much as I loved him and miss him so much I just think it would be the better option for me