my name is J(m16) and i and being blamed for something i didn’t do. my ex A(M?17) is trans girl to guy last i knew. and is saying i r*ped my other ex G(f17) and i didn’t. only reason i know this is because her and i never even had sex i never even saw her naked. my ex A was extremely abusive even knowing i grew up in an extremely abusive household very physical and mentally abusive parents. but my ex G has even come out and agreed i didn’t because we never had sex. since this has happened my self esteem has plummeted it’s never been good as it is and now it’s lower than low. and my suicidal thoughts have been worse and worse. i use to cut to try and end it all and it never worked so i covered the scars in tattoos. now people think i’m scary because i’m big and covered in tattoos and i’m scared to date because of the allegations that were denied by both me and G. what do i do. the suicidal thoughts and low self esteem aren’t getting better and therapy isn’t helping. please internet strangers i need guidance

UPDATE!!! thank you everyone for your help and reply’s!! have found better therapy and am doing much better!!