My past is rocky with addiction and truthfulness. This has caused a great deal of mistrust from my SO. Currently I’m at 18 months without a relapse(alcohol was the primary issue). Over the past 6 years, since our daughter was born, I’ve had maybe 10 relapses in total.

Pretty good progress I must say! However my SO has not relented in to overbearing, mistrusting, and critique oriented way that she interacts with me. Day to day, I get it, it’s not easy to move through for either of us BUT every day for the past several months I’ve been pushed to lower and lower depths of hopelessness and despair in my relationship not just with her but with all of my relationships.

Today I reached a literal snapping point. There was an audible crack in my body/mind and I lost it, I dropped everything I had been harboring and came to the realization that I can’t keep doing this.

Am I throwing in the towel early or am I holding a boundary? I can’t keep being treated like this or I will likely take more self inflicting actions.

Yes, I’m in counseling and I am heavily medicated each day. Four different meds each day: bipolar, depression, anxiety, and alcohol dependence. I work on healthy coping skills several times daily. Everything just comes down to how I feel I’m being treated by my spouse.

She says I’m misrepresenting the things she says, while I feel like I’m being gaslit. I don’t know what to do. I’m a stay at home parent and have an incredibly limited amount of financially independence to break away from this.