I wake up, and it's 3AM, I'm hype and full of energy, and I think to myself "Now is the time I'll focus on the things I have to focus on". And I wake up, turn my laptop on and sit on my chair. I then start a video tutorial on [desired goal], but halfway through the video and I'm already staring at the ceiling. "When did it get so interesting?" "What's that spot over there I never noticed?" and all of a sudden I no longer have an interest on the video I was watching. And maybe it's even something I should be prioritizing because it could be life-changing knowledge. I turn off my laptop, only to leave it there for days on end until the next big thing comes up. I keep blaming myself for things being the way they are right now, and even attempt to take action, only for that fire and motivation within to be gone quickly. I then get on a repeating cycle of motivation, lack of motivation, blaming myself for days until the next big thing comes. When will I learn, and what should I do to control these things that only ADHD was there to understand? I've lost interest in everything, and yet, there's this strange ambition to keep going for simply no reason.