I'm at a convention called "Anime NYC" and I'm overwhelemed by all the options I have. There is an artist alley which is incredbly large and I just want to "know it all" but I cant, I want to experience everything in there and understand how all the art was created. so much to investigate.

In my head I'm getting overwhelemd because i know I can't "experience everything", therfore I think "if I choose option A, what if option B was better?" this leads me into optting out of doing anything. Its like I have a giant fear of failure even when it comes to having fun!

tbh, this pattern repeats itself everysingle day in different situations.

*I want to be perfect

*I can't be perfect and think that im too dumb to make a smart choice

*I opt out and then do nothing

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on a similar note, when I try to force myself to do homework or anything I view as a challenge to my execytive dysfunction(?), I get meta anxiety and opt out of doing whatever it is im supposed to be doing. when i don't feel like I have control, I give up. its been going for years.

in fact writing this was a challenge because indont feel like ive explained myself peoperly and organize how I'm going to write it was annoying.

everything is overhwelming

Almost as if I have an aversion to uncmofrtable experiences. Am I lazy or what?

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any Advice would be greatly appreciated.