I think might end up losing my job because I just can’t focus. The job has completely changed since when I started. It was boring but at least a little creative. Now it’s just turned into basically what feel like data entry. I knew it was going to be boring going in, but over time they’ve just wanted “100% Perfect” and I’m just incapable of it apparently. The work is so much more detailed now and there’s so many rules to remember.

I get called out for so many little mistakes. And honestly I think they’re valid call outs. My coworkers have seemed annoyed with me because of them and I’m pretty sure one of the other designers subtweeted about how I need to “do better” one time.

I wish I could do better :( It’s embarrassing to have a whole column devoted to your fuck ups that always need fixing. It reminds me of when I was young and I’d read the homework directions several times and still mess up and miss things. Then I’d just be told “you need to start reading the directions completely”.

I haven’t even got my portfolio together to look for another job right now because I’ve been so consumed trying to work and force myself to focus and getting distracted that it takes up the entire day…

Idk :/ like I’m good, but damn I’m tired of fighting my brain so much.