Here I am, almost done another day off work where I should have made serious progress on the biggest commission in my artistic career, and instead I spent the entire weekend thrift shopping and setting up my new apartment.

I spent 2 weeks on my application, completely nailed it and got through 2 judgement phases, and now my brain is at a standstill. I know exactly what I need to do, how to do it, its a ton of work and Id rather stream Friends for hours.

If I mess this up, I dont think I could forgive myself. Ive been waiting on medication for nearly a year, finally got my appointment, and the kicker is its literally the exact same day my commission is due. Im just living ironically at this point.