Hey everyone!

I’m 23M and just ~virtually~ graduated college with a degree in Visual Communication (graphic design) this past May. Later that same month I was diagnosed with having ADHD and I’ve learned a lot about myself in the process. I really need to hear some advice and different perspectives as I’ve been feeling pretty lost and unsure of the future.

When I came to college I STRUGGLED awfully, switched majors several times, and ended up in the hospital my first semester. I finally switched my major to VC and over the next 4 years I stuck with it. It was constant stress and the way school is structured just doesn’t work well for me. However, neither does my own lack of structure. I often look back at my choice of major and wonder if it was really what I wanted to do or if I just chose it simply because I had just enough interest to actually make it through college with literally anything.

Now that I’m graduated and am on Ritalin and Zoloft things have been somewhat-ish better. Sometimes I feel like I rarely want to get out of bed. Everything is so mentally or physically exhaustive and stressful and overwhelming. Ritalin and Zoloft have helped with these feelings. I don’t have the constant pressure of school on me and it’s been nice to not be in a constant state of anxiety and being miserable about work. Frankly, I’m still just not a fan of working or getting started. Ritalin has helped somewhat in day to day activities, but I still struggle to make myself design or illustrate. School was the only thing that could motivate me to even think about creating art. Now everyday I tell myself I should practice, and everyday I find some other distraction and put it off further.

I’ve always felt that I lack both the creative and technical qualities to be able to do this career. I’ve always compared myself to my classmates and to others online and just doubt myself so much at this point. I don’t have the same passion others do and it truly shows in our skill gaps. It can even be so difficult to come up with new ideas, much less to actually think them fully through into a practical design project.

I’m at the point where I just don’t know what to do. I constantly consider switching careers, but have no idea what I’d do otherwise. I don’t feel particularly good at much of anything else and my interests come and go every week. I wish I could be more creative and skilled, but I just can’t get myself to even try and I’m at the point where I just feel like maybe I need to find something else....

Does anyone have any advice? I’ve considered other jobs, but I don’t know what would work for me. Is there anyone else who’s dealt with something like this? Idk exactly what questions to ask I guess, but I’d really appreciate any help. Thanks 💕

TL;DR: College was hard and now I can’t create art anymore and don’t know what to do with my future at all because of self doubt and ADHD.