Hi guys, just got my shit together after a loss of control situation and was wondering how others manage the intense spike of emotions when in the moment?

I genuinely loose control when I get angry and I smash things I love and then I'm downright heartbroken that I do this to myself.

I've always struggled to process strong emotions and either check out totally and go mute or I spike and loose my shit.

It's always just a variation of a theme....I put my fists thru walls and smash up my own stuff in fits of rage when something goes wrong.. I feel this fucking dread like the universe is fucking with me constantly.... I can't stop it I've tried everything. I can be having a good day and then bam...total fucking nutjob moment.

I kicked a full deep fat fryers worth of fat over my (inherited) granddad's jaguar in a fit of rage earlier after it slipped out my hand and spilt a little on the drive....my prize possession covered in oil and the fryer bounced off the door..thankfully it must've hit a plastic bitnofnthe fryer and no damage done but I believed I'd just dented my prize possession..... Then cue immediate breakdown in tears as I'm overwhelmed with the feelings that im ruining my life...reacting badly to shitty situations constantly and never progressing.

Fuck this shit man I can't take the frustration anymore....feel like quitting.