No matter where you stand it hurts.

Being high functioning I get to see where I fail. Being gifted and having adhd means i get to have high grades with out trying but also means i want to curl up in a ball and cry when I'm failing because I know it's my fault for not trying. I don't study like I should. I don't pay attention or review my transcripts of class( use otter super handy if u actually review).

I hate being able to see how I fail and have no motivation to go foward. I'm doing this on my own and it's so hard. I don't want to do this anymore. I want to do better but it's so hard. Specially when you remember ever mistake, every hardship, ever harsh comment, every little thing that you struggle with. It builds and builds.

The worst part of it all. I don't look like I'm struggling. I look and sound fine. I should be able to but I am unable to