I got my wisdom teeth out Wednesday and since then I had to be at my mons until today because of the pain and stuff.

I (19 almost 20) don't know how to do a lot of stuff cuz my mom babied me. Also argued/fought a lot. I was always "lazy" or never did anything or so forgetful and it would cause arguement after argument but also she would baby me. Dinner was always provided and if it wasn't I made hot dogs or grilled cheese because I don't know how to cook. My laundery was done for me up until I was grade 9 or 10.

The environment I was in made my depression worse. I didn't ever want to do anything. I sat in bed and watch videos or gamed. I slept in all the time. She did nothing about it because she didn't know. I don't blame her for that, she works a lot to just get by. (Something I'm also just understanding).

These last 5 days I was more happy but also more depressed because I got to be in the past per say. Everything was done for me. She just dropped me off and helped me clean the house because my grandma comes home soon (moved out but into my grandma's she doesn't do a lot for me but still teaches me. The middle ground of adulting). My mom told me to clean the toilet and I said idk how to. Next thing I hear shes doing it and doesn't tell me how. As she was leaving I felt so sad because I miss it because idk what I'm doing. I am also happy because I know I'm learning and growing. Currently though all I want to do is curl up and sleep.

I hate this middle ground I stand. I know it will get better but I fucking hate it.