at this moment I'm just coming out of a mini-episode, of panic and loneliness. I was supposed to do a mini shopping adventure with friends but they planned it during my class and they didn't know so we planned to hang after they did their thing and I was done the class. Well, we're not getting together till about 8 pm three hours after my class. the friend had a long day and just wanted to be alone, I saw it as rejection, them and her not wanting to hang. I texted a friend who snap chatted me and during the convo, it clicked.
my perception doesn't equal reality.
I've been working on seeing that and being okay with plans changing. I maybe felt lonely for 2 hours but I only broke down for 10 mins and it wasn't major it was mini.
Day by Day we change, Day by Day we grow.

Update: went up to go to the washroom stranger who didn't see the event take place but probably saw my face was red from crying high fived me on my way down stairs