I've always had days where I just feel like I can't function. Lethargic, barely any energy whatsoever, finding small distractions to occupy my mind because otherwise I'd just sit and stare into space while thoughts drift by aimlessly and without structure.

I suspect it's when I haven't slept well or eaten enough, and/or when I've been in some social or other situation the day before which requires extended concentration and focus, and ends up draining my mental energy for a day or so.

Today was one of those days, waking up hungry but feeling overwhelmed and tired and not having the energy to get out of bed. Where the smallest things feel like enormous challenges.

Since learning about ADHD I've been trying to be kinder to myself when I have bad days or feel overwhelmed.

I've been on dexamphetamine for a few days, somewhere around 5-15mg per day. The effect has been subtle but noticeable. Today they didn't seem to be doing much, if anything I felt more tired than usual and almost sleepy. I also could barely eat, just had no appetite (which is a usual thing for me at times, even before medication).

This led to me reading a bit about stimulant effects and also watching a bit of a lecture on ADHD medications that I've watched parts of before.

And, with nothing particular triggering it, I started to feel really emotional. I cried for a while and it felt kind of cathartic. A strange mix of sadness and acceptance and just letting myself feel what I felt in the moment. What really struck me was that I think the meds were slowly increasing in effect and it was a kind of calm, neutral emotion - not the usual one where I feel overwhelmed by thoughts and anxieties.

I just sat, calm, letting the emotion pass over me, just experiencing it. And while it wasn't actually enjoyable per se, it felt like something I really needed. Like some weight had lifted afterwards.

Has anyone else experienced something like this?