Hello, I'm a 36 year old male. Recently diagnosed with adhd. But a brief background . Difficult childhood. Single mother ( never told me who father was) quite abusive and neglectful. Grew up very self reliant. Avoidant attachment in relationships, once get to serious point I withdraw.. anxiety picking faults. I started consoling 4 years ago and improved and grown alot. I have achieved alot in my life considering a racing mind and looking at negatives most me life.

Currently in the healthiest relationship I've had, 7 years together and I want to commit but I've had extreme anxiety about age difference (she 9 years older). I have sat with this for 2.5 years and it didn't go away. I felt it was my Avoidant attachment picking fault.

Anyways I started vyvanse 30mg. And it has totally changed me. Very positive, confident and problems i have seem silly and not a big deal. Essentially when I in medication I feel like committing and getting married. But soon as medication wears off the ruminating and fault finding starts again.

Just wondering has anyone experienced something similar? Has to fault finding gone once committed? Do I trust decision making whilst on medication or without it?

Thanks in advance