I have been putting off getting anxiety meds for a really long time, I have a huge fear of medication. Took me 10 years to start taking adderall (I only take it 3 times a week for school) and i'm struggling to find a medication that aligns with adderall that my brain approves of. I set up a psychiatrist appointment for next week and want to come prepared with medications I feel comfortable with. Im about to be 21 years old and im female.

I struggle a lot with overwhelming feelings of doom, one thing taking a lovely day into panic attacks where I feel as though my world is crumbling. Ive honestly gotten really good at controlling them. But last semester I had a few weeks where everything was falling all of the time and I couldn't take one hit before crumbling. Im trying to be proactive and get medicated before I can get back to that place. But medication is another major anxiety for me. Im scared of reliance, negative side effects and loosing myself in the medication.

I don't want my sex drive lower, or weight gain (which I understand is hard to find) I also worry about lack of motivation because thats also been something im already struggling with. I just dont want to take a medication where the side effects give me more anxiety than I already have.

I was really considering an antidepressant like Wellbutrin, because of its lack of major side effects and quit smoking benefits. Ive seen people say it made their anxiety better and worse. also both of the medications can lower appetite.

Anyway, any suggestion are appreciated, tried to separate this long rant into bits and there not all important but has to get it out there. thank you, good night