I've been put onto amphetamine/dextroamphetamine around the beginning of November. I'm just as me as ever, if not worse. Things got rough for me around the holidays and really spun out of control but has since balanced. My new normal seems to be at a way lower level of functioning than previously, and that's saying something. I'm just so frustrated with myself and everything around me. Now that all the winter breaks and vacations are done I've checked in on my next appointment which is USUALLY auto scheduled every 2 weeks but my next is February 22 a whole 53 days from the previous appointment. I sent a message asking if we're at least going to increase the dose again or change to something else as this is my first medication since diagnosis. He said no and wants me to come back in at the next appointment to talk about it then and then renewed my prescription to make it through to that date.

I'm losing hope. I hate my new therapist as well. But that's a whole second mildly infuriating post. I'm in the same position I was going on 5 or more years now. I want change but feel so stupid and powerless to make any. I had high hopes for this crap to finally get my shit together. Instead, I fall behind more and more and there's no end in sight.

I've done all the planning, all the list making, the positive self talk, the accountability metrics, and coped all the mechanisms. Nothing yet has been effective for me.

Has anyone overcome these things? What was effective for you?