Hey guys,

I am currently unable to get diagnosed, but I am pretty sure I have ADHD. Yes, I know it's generally looked down upon to self-diagnose, but I have been looking into this. This is my hyperfixation recently, if you will. I know I probably got it from my dad. He is a workaholic, but he sucks at life stuff. My mom constantly have arguments with him about him not putting things back in place, overworking (5AM-11PM no joke), not listening to her, forgetting things, any ADHD symptoms you can think of. He even forgot his chemo once...

Back to myself, my girlfriend complained multiple times to me that I am in my own world, I don't throw away trash, I forget what she says, and I yap too much talking about the same thing. I genuinely care about her, but we have talked about this so many times that I had to tell her "I am not confident that I can meet your expectations, but I will try my best." I am also told that when I was a kid, I would crawl around in the restaurant (I knew how to walk), kick the front seat on the airplane, and wiggle around in the movie theater. The thing about me is that I am book-smart. I have no problem when it comes to school. It makes people hard to believe that I have ADHD, and it almost made me believe that I don't have ADHD.

To give more examples, I lost many things in my life. Three years in college, I lost 4 water bottles, 2 BIG headphones, 1 AirPods, 2 credit cards, and probably more. I also forget to take stuff out of my pants before throwing them into the washer. I've washed my passport and wallets before.. When I was younger, I also left things on public transportation multiple times.

I don't want to make this article any longer. As of today, I mask all my symptoms in front of acquaintances and strangers. It is really really draining to suppress my ADHD symptoms or constantly remind myself of something. It has gotten better though. Yeah, I am not sure what I want to ask. Maybe tell me what you think about my symptoms.