My psychiatrist has prescribed me Ritalin, and I took my first dose of it today.

The effects were almost immediate and I managed to do the tasks I was supposed to, and I also have this new 'drive'. Usually I can't say focused on one subject for too long (even with stuff I like) but today I managed that with ease. It's very clear to me that I'm much more productive with the medication than without.

As the day went on however, I remembered that Ritalin only lasts about six hours-ish and I started to dread the effects wearing off. Eventually they'll wear off and I'll go back to being my usual self and everything will be much harder again... :/

I'll have to take the medications again and again to manage, but I don't want that. I want the medicated me to be the ordinary me, if that makes any sense.

Sorry for the rant, I just needed to say it to people who might understand haha.

(Sorry for my grammar english isn't my first language)