I sometimes feel like I am too sensitive and have way more empathy and understanding than most people, and others I feel completely devoid of emotion and empathy even though I know I should care and I feel kind of guilty for that.

When I reflect later I feel bad, but it's like, some situations I just can't seem to emotionally feel bad (while I do have rational empathy), and others, like I said, I recognize I have too much emotional empathy even though rationally it wouldn't make much sense to feel that much empathy.

I am just confused by this. It's often a conflict in my mind (especially off meds) between my rational and my emotional side, then I begin to try to understand everything that might have led the person to a given action and what might have led me to have this perspective and how true is it, who is "right", is anyone right at all and what if everyone is just a victim of their circumstances to what extent can we blame them and is it fair to be angry at them, but also how do we function if no one is responsible for anything.. and so on