I just need to vent. School has been weighing heavy on my life for a very long time leading to my mental health being at an all time low for the past months to the point where I considered suicide. It's horrible, truly horrible, so I quit. I dropped out of school for my mental well-being (I'm currently unmedicated and can't handle anything). It's a very sad thing considering I made it halfway into the school year and now I'm just dropping out. Did I/am I making a massive mistake? I am planning on going back in 8 months, and in the meanwhile I just want my life to become "sustainable". I have a passion for video creation and have a very small channel (176 subs), that I am planning on going all out on. The truth is, I don't want to return to school in 8 months. I would much rather have the freedom of not absolutely HAVING to do anything. My parents aren't exactly thrilled with my decision either, but they understand. I have a meeting with my school counselor tomorrow, and I know she's going to try to convince me of staying; but I'm tired. I so desperately need this break. In my head I really only have 2 options, and only one of them ends up with me keeping my life. So I'm going to drop out of school for at least 8 months instead of dropping out of life forever. Has anyone else been in this situation? A remotely similar one even? I feel horrible about all of this and it's giving me insane amounts of anxiety (still less than what school itself causes me ATM). I have told my friends and they support me.

Anyhow, I have this problem where I get really hyperfixated on something, and now it's the hyperfixation to make it on YouTube. Has anyone started from scratch recently and actually done well? Any tips at all would really help. Thank you for reading my long rant about the last couple of days. Oh and I have really bad ADHD and I'm unmedicated until what I assume to be sometime in late February or early March so any adhd tips as well would help greatly.