I Don't remember the moments when I was so happy my heart was about to burst. I Don't grieve properly and forget about it until someone brings it up and all of a sudden I'm all in tears. I Don't remember directions to a place 5 mins away from my home, though I've been there so many times. I comstantly lose my way and need to be redirected. I suck.

I wish I could actually remember when my classmates said "Remember when __ happened? It was so fumny!" instead of pretending to remember.. I wanna write everything down but keep getting distracted and keep forgetting to write most of the time. When I finally open my notes app I'm like "Okay wth was I supposed to write again?" I'm a bad daughter and sister because of it, I forget to cook what they asked me to cook like 5 minutes ago. I forget their antibiotics or a simple request of "Bring me some water please"

I'm only 20, well, still 19 till the 26th of Nov but I can already sense hating my 9 to 5 or being a terrible partner if I ever end up having one lol.

Funny thing is: I feel like a failure but I still gaslitmyseldf into believing everything is just a facade and I Don't need an Official diagnosis or professional help.