Its like I can't stop myself from procrastinating. I can't stop myself from opening a game while doing my homework and then submitting with a 40%. Its like I'm addicted to sabotaging myself and being a failure. It brews so much self hatred because I am the one ruining my own life. I'm the one in college wasting thousands of dollars to get a C in every class and organize my silverware instead of doing my assignments. I hate the way my brain works. I feel broken and slow. Math makes me want to die every time I attempt it. Its like I read something, and within 10 seconds it gets sucked into the giant cloud in my brain and I have to reread 10 times before I give up and get distracted on my phone. I feel so miserable and depressed.