I'm experiencing (finally taking responsibility for) my emotional disregulation that leads to explosive outbursts of frustration and anger when I'm in a professional work environment.

I'm at a new job and I'm lashing out at situations where I make mistakes or feel like I'm severely underperforming.

However these outbursts are a much worse issue than my actual mistakes and performance issues.

My coworkers probably think I'm Dr. Jekyll and Hide. Because it just comes out of nowhere almost.

I guess I'm venting but also seeking advice or other people's experiences.

I don't want to lose this job. I need help.

I do have a therapist but I don't think I've been honest with myself or them in regards to this particular emotional regulation issue.