Hello!

I've waited to make this post because I've seen so many similar ones that share the same sentiment of "just wait for the effect to go down".

I'm on a dose and strength of Adderall XR that works quite well for me. I've been on it for about 3 weeks now, and oh boy. I can think, do tasks, switch between tasks, recall things easier, read.

I never got a euphoric feeling, so I was afraid it wasn't working because of all the posts I've seen before. That was until I realized: "Oh shit. I just read a long reading passage for 45 minutes straight, of something I wasn't even particularly interested in".

The days go by faster now, I'm very productive. I'm happy.

I have thought about the "grieving" of my past life, but I know that I would not have been able to receive this treatment, afford it (and the diagnosis behind it), nor be in the mindset to receive it in the first place.

I'm happy with how things are going. I finally feel like I'm truly that worthy person. I'm damn good, too!

I also understand now how therapy plays a part into ADHD treatment as well. I've lived 23 years of my life adapting to it, and those mannerisms don't just go away. A week ago, I spent 15 minutes writing notes down on a piece of paper ("so I didn't forget"). I was trying to read a single paragraph but everything reminded me of something that I was meaning to do (that I never remember, b/c ADHD). I told myself I had to stop, because I just had a paper full of fragments to look at, and hadn't read anything.

The medication helps tremendously, but it doesn't completely stop my symptoms. If I am in an extremely busy environment, I still can't focus at all, even remotely. If I am in a place where I need to study, but there's nothing at all going on around me, it's harder to focus.

I still have to adapt to life, and living on meds. Life is significantly easier, overall. It's going great. :)