I'm 24m for refrance, I think it started in my childhood thinking everything would be easy if you just look it up hard enough to find how so I imagined I would be able to have a bright future after school and college but I barley passed both and literally the past 6 years I have been living alone but getting pocket money from my father however I started to work for couple of months here and there in college to get used to it but I quit after graduation since the bright future I was looking for it totally unrealistic for me I barely get by and can't get a decent job to get experience at least in the feild I want nor I can travel somewhere else to get a new start I feel that I'm a more burden to my father day by day and literally the past 6 years are totally wasted I knew what I should have done and ignored it I realized that recently and trying to be a better version of me but I keep failing and giving up mid way throughout the first step I honestly think it's more than enough but I would give myself one last chance for a whole year either I change to even slightly better version of me or I shouldn't exist anymore so please tell me any advice to force myself to stop procrastinating without having any hope or passion left