Hi guys, I was diagnosed with BPD a couple years ago. I've been on medication for a long time now and while they have helped, I feel like there is something more. I don't know that much about ADHD and if it has variants or different types.

Due to the medical system in my country it takes a long time to be diagnosed with ADHD. I have been in touch with my doctor about it.

I just wanted to ask something in regard to this. While my BPD definitely affects my day to day, one thing that has been ongoing since I have been an adult has been my lack of focus to details.

My job and previous jobs have been very detail focused. And while I swear I am doing and checking and verifying... I keep fucking up. I cannot for the fuck of me understand. In my last job no matter what I did, how much I counted, numbers would be off.

In my current job I need extra focus. I want to move to a department where I cannot fuck up without huge consequences. I feel so so so defeated. I've been here for nearly a year and I feel like instead of getting better, I am getting worse.

I feel like an idiot. I feel like on an intellectual basis I am a walking moron. I can be friendly and personable, but that doesn't help whatsoever in my lack of intelligence. I feel like I'm losing my mind and honestly I want to dip so hard. Everyone around me is moving on in the company. And it is maybe that I am also being impatient but I feel like I'm going nowhere. And with my work I'm not exactly the first one in line.

Is this ADHD? Do you guys experience this?

I feel like I'm gonna lose my job at this rate. It's like my eyes scan over the documents and everything looks good and ready to go. And the moment I click sent everything disappears and shows how unfinished and messy my work is.

My BPD is already hard enough hahaha...