My executive dysfunction has been so awful. I want to spend more time on my writing, but when I'm not at work I spend all my time on my phone or playing videos and I think in the back of my head "I should really write today".

And then I don't. The time sleeps away until finally I lie in bed, my thoughts clear and think of lines that sound nice, but I fall asleep and forget them.

I know no one can make this better but me. Executive dysfunction just takes so much from me - all the practical and boring stuff like cleaning and taking care of myself, but more then that, it takes my art.

I'm 30 and want more for myself.

But I'm not giving up.