I rewrote this a million times of course but I have really been struggling with a form of " blah " this week that seems to be amplified my inattentive diagnosis.

I've done a lot of work learning my emotional cycles and mental moods through the lens of this disability, however I'm curious about other peoples struggles with the brain "ignoring" feelings.

I know I'm in a depressed/down mood at the moment ( it's a healthy one & I'm ok ), however part of me is being REALLY productive and efficient as a way I would normally compensate and "pull myself up" from the doldrums...

Except this time I've just been... blah.... instead of being sad & depressed / or proud & uplifted by anything it's like a paralyzing feeling not knowing how to feel and just on autopilot.

This has happened a few times before, and the best way to describe it is " I'm unable to know how to feel at the moment " and my emotional regulation is like static on an old TV. Not good/bad..... just overwhelmed with the mental noise. I want to just get this task ( emotion ) done but just like laundry I can't fucking fold it.

Anyone relate?