I(18f) made a deal with my mom until I get a job I would clean the house in exchange for money. One time I managed to be able to wipe the counters, sweep the floors and clean the dishes in one night and I was proud of myself but now I’m struggling. There are so many gross dishes and I cleaned several of them but many are still there in the sink and on the counters. It makes me feel crowded and overwhelmed when I get near them. Dishes are the one I struggle with the most. I abhor doing dishes I have intrusive thoughts of setting them on fire! Of course I won’t do that but still cleaning things is so hard especially when trying to start because of the low motivation. Ugh I hate my brain sometimes.