I have so many ideas or dislikes or vices about myself, but I am also aware of what exactly I am like or can be like. This leads to me seeing myself as having a lot of different personalities and outlooks that vary wildly, but it is like I can pick and choose which one for how I want to be in a given moment.

Dry, pessimistic, cynical

Hopeful, "myself", goofy

Calming, quiet, stable

Depressive, hateful, bitter

Reserved, inquisitive, etc.

I don't feel like I have any actual given or set personality. This could also be because when I was a kid and when I was a teenager I had incredibly little social interaction. I would sometime talk to a total of 10 people in an entire week for weeks at a time. I don't know why I am like this but it feels like there is no "me". Just a variant that I can choose to be for the day. Like changing clothes.