I’m also seeking empathy/support.

**Tl;dr: I’ve experienced some extremely traumatic family deaths April-June and I can’t dig myself out. I’ve slipped deep into failure and depression; weight gain, social isolation, not taking care of myself, no longer working out, quit my job to try and “reset”, and am bed ridden rotting away and eating my feelings. My partner doesn’t know how to help me. I don’t know how anyone can help me either.

I have two informal job offers and I can’t force myself to send in my appreciations because I just don’t want to. I don’t think I’m ready to work again. But weekly therapy and bills keep draining my savings. Even showering is something I don’t do anymore. I cry daily about the loss, the grief, and the state of my life.

I can’t show up for myself because I don’t care about myself.

What the fuck do I do?

**I’m nesting the longer version in the comments.