Idk about yall, but sometimes(that's generous, most of the time) I have a HARD time making decisions. I've said this before but I feel like the brain fog has lifted for the first time in a while. I feel so motivated to make life changes. But I can't help but wonder if this my ADHD getting bored of my current life. If I am trying to make this changes because I am trying to escape myself?(If that makes sense) If i've spent a majority of my life recreating traumatic experiences, how can I trust that doing any of this will make me any better.

In my head, once I move it'll change my whole personality. That moving will force me to do things that will make me break out of this antisocial cocoon I've been in. I don't feel like this is a mistake, but I've let me emotions rule my decisions before and I am trying to break out of following the same patterns over and over.