29M

I’ve been on multiple dates and I mask a lot. I act as normal as possible, joke about normal things etc. I don’t make any physical contact with my dates as I don’t WAna be seen as pushy.

What do you guys do? Do you initiate physical contact on the first date? Do you hug? Hold hands? Lastly, when you do start to be yourself? I look at myself and know I’m a lot to handle. But acting normal is painful, as it makes me think that everyone in the world is insanely boring with nothing going on/talk about. I also can’t not talk. Silence is loud to me. But I know it’s hard for non ADHD people to have constant conversation.

Do people really walk and not talk? Wtf.