Hello everyone.

I've found the roots of all of my problems to be emotional dependency, making me clingy and needy.

Now in the last year I've managed to work on it fairly well, especially with friends, but I still can't get to manage it relationships wise.

A few months ago, I went on a date with this guy, it went well, but after a few days, I realized that the date went well because he was fake or something. It gave me love bomb vibes or something eles, either way, the way he reacted after our first date was a bit out of proportion (calling me babe etc.)

I knew all along something was fishy, either way, when he ghosted me, it still hurt like hell. Logically, there was no reason to feel bad, I my self thought he was behaving weirdly, so it didn't come as a surprise. The emotional part of my brain was having none of it.

Now, after a few months, I'm feeling it again, the guy I'm seeing is acting a bit distant and not replying to me, now he's on vacation so that might be the reason, still, that's not the point, the point is, why do I get so dependent on some stranger? It even happens when I'm not that into them, but I follow through and go out with them, and get emotionally attached.

I get rejection sensitive dysphoria and all, but how do I overcome this? How do I see it as it actually is? Even though I know that it's nothing much, I feel void whenever I see him posting stuff and ignoring me. Sometimes, the logical part of my brain takes over and I just feel a bit bad and be like "i guess shit happens", then after a few minutes, I feel like everything is falling apart.

Why does it have to be so hard?