Hello. All of my life I knew I had some attention disorder, but no matter how much I've talked about It(since I was like 15) no one believed me till I got my diagnosis recently. Since I got it Idk what is happening, maybe my defenses are coming down and I am unmasking, but my adhd got "worse" and Im not really sad about It. Cause all of my life I had to always pretend and mask there and there. I've come here to ask if its normal or if it has occurred to anyone else that they feel like they are cosplaying as themselves...cause Idk lately when I talk with people all I see are the invisible rules that I have to follow in order to stay safe..I don't feel like following them anymore and when Im like this I feel a lot of pressure in responding to someone, staying with someone...idk I just feel scared of people and I feel like every time Im talking Im reading a script...I'm so sick of this... Edit: If I got anything wrong Its bc eng's not my first language.