I feel a little disheartened so far because I've been chasing the good experience I had with Concerta XL.

I tried Elvanse recently but had a terrible experience on it. I felt like I was coming up on an E tablet: sweating, euphoria, but without any focus or anything, it gave me the worst insomnia I've ever had.

My doctor told me to try instant release methylphenidate hydrochloride, I started on 5mg, 15mg, which didn't do much. All I felt was the same experience as Elvanse without the insomnia, thankfully.

The crash hasn't outweighed any positive experience, unfortunately. I'm sitting here now at 7.12am feeling lost and confused, my head a mess, it feels wishy washy like I've lost all motivation for the gym and work.

I'm going to ask my doctor at Psychiatry-Uk to notify me when Concerta XL comes back, I'm glad I tried the latter, but God damn, the experience has been terrible on them.

I know there will be other stimulates to try but I feel like they'll give me the same symptoms, I'm married and have a kid, it's the school holiday so I can't risk turning into a zombie again as it's not fair on them.