I 32nb was diagnosed with ADHD as a child but my parents hid it from me and never got me any support. I went my entire life thinking I was just a lazy screw up. It wasn’t until last year when my mom admitted to me I was diagnosed as a kid but that they didn’t believe in it at the time and thought I was just a child with a lot of energy.

After years of failure I’m finally doing well in my return to college and made honors with my grades. But I feel as though my issues are only getting worse. I take 6-7 hours to do assignments that should only take me 30 minutes. I can’t hold onto any habits I want. I work from home and have been skipping days and days of work. I want so badly to just be productive and to start habits I know will help me but I just can’t get myself to do anything. It’s at the point where even things I do for fun like gaming and drawing are impossible to start.

I have no idea where to go to get help or even if I did how to actually get myself to start it. I feel like my whole life slipped by and I will never get ahold of myself. I would really prefer not to medicate as I have horrendous anxiety as is and taking stimulants or any meds for that matter scares the crap out of me. Is there anything I can do or someone I can see to help me this far into my life? Any advice at all would be super appreciated.