Growing up they always used to hit, choke, and punch me in the face in response to bad grades, telling the truth or me just asking questions. Because of this, I developed a thing for lying because if I told the truth then they'd hurt me and I didn't want to get hurt, and a lack of asking questions or being afraid to speak up. You can imagine how bad this has made my life, I went from being a success kid to being a people pleaser who was afraid to speak up or do things I wanted.

It didn't help that they knew about my ADHD but never took it seriously. This led me to pushing myself to my mental limit and burning out, which they ridiculed me and of course beat me for. To this day no one takes my ADHD seriously so I've grown to not acknowledge it and just keep going on even if I'm overstimulated and dissociated.ive tried to explain that I can't do the things they do and be organized, If anything it just makes it worse. I also have a tendency to see things that aren't there, hear things that aren't there and on some occasions have fully complex and realistic conversations and actions all in my head but they didn't take that seriously and threatened to send me to a mental health center.

In fact when they weren't beating or choking me, I was deeply suicidal and depressed to a point where I stayed in my room and just festered and they responded by beating me out of the bed. They just don't understand that things that are easier for them aren't easy for me at all. They even ridiculed me for trying to leave their house and get my own.