I started Vyvanse last January and ever since then, I feel like my frontal lobe has developed. I feel my 1200 SAT score I got junior year hardly reflects my capabilities, but my grades from high school don’t counter that at all.

I go to a perfectly acceptable university and the flexibility and accommodations it gives me allows me to maximize my potential there, but I feel like by the end of my undergrad, I won’t get a $100k job just because of what school I went to.

I listen to topics from Harvard professors and they reciprocate my knowledge and theories that my friends around me call me crazy, delusional, and manic for. I feel like my potential isn’t being looked at at all, and Vyvanse has increased my IQ when I used to not be able to finish any test on time. I feel wasted, and I’m scared I won’t be able to pursue an MBA in this economy. And on top of tuition and housing costs, I have to worry about coughing up $400 a month for medication.

I could be considered a marketing genius. I could be considered a musical/artistic prodigy. But that potential was never realized till after I finished a year of adulthood. Now I don’t know what exactly to do, other than make enough money to get into the career I want to.

I just feel like I’m surrounded by people who don’t take my intellectual capabilities seriously because of the person I was before Vyvanse. I guess all I can do is finish this undergrad with a GPA above 3.5. But does anyone else feel the same? I don’t know how to feel.