I just can't make friends; I don't know how to keep up with it.

I like gaming, but I hate gaming alone, so the logical thing to do is go on Discord and subreddits to ask for people who want to play together, but I feel so stupid and weird for doing that. Is that how you even get friends? I feel like that never works out. You never get friends like that; it must happen organically, right?

What if we add each other, play one game, and I don't vibe with them? Do I just delete them without saying anything? What can you even say? "Oh, I don't like this, peace, bye"? That feels so awkward and weird.

Even outside of gaming friends, I just feel weird asking people to go out and hang out with me because I'm ashamed to do it, and I overthink it too much because I'm a perfectionist, and I put too many obstacles in my own way in a weird way.

Is having friends really hard when you have ADHD, or is this just a me thing? 😭