27F. My brain is all over the place. I’m in the middle of getting diagnosed with Non Verbal Learning Disorder and ADHD.

I’ve had my mental health in check for about 2 years now but I’ve had an immense amount of stress the past few months. On top of being a mom of 3 kids under 5, we put our dog down a few weeks ago, we’ve been house hunting (we’re finally under contract yay), I rekindled my marriage at the end of last year while also having our 3rd baby and I’m just all over the place. As is this post, sorry lol.

I self soothe with caffeine as a temporary solution until I get my “official” diagnosis (in August but I’m on a waiting list) and can start trying out meds. But I’m constantly masked and anxious. I’m not sleeping. I’m either binge eating or not eating for a full day. I’m exhausted. It’s currently 11:13 and I know I’ll be awake for another few hours even though I KNOW I have to wake up early and be a mom!

I’ve been really into adult coloring books too. That’s been helping.

Idk what else to do though. Please help. I’m struggling and just want to crawl under a rock most days. But my kids need me. I mask well for them. When I’m in mom mode, I get things done for my babies because they deserve it and don’t need to carry the burden of my diagnosis’s. But I wish I didn’t have to mask so hard. I want to just feel normal.