I spent 12 hours writing a book, I’m very exhausted, I didn’t moved in front of my computer only to go the bathroom when my bladder would explode. I was so focused on that thing, and very excited doing it.

I regret now what I did I’m pretty sad because I did not do anything useful today. I have nobody to talk to, nobody to understand that’s why I’m posting this here, seeking some comfort and people who experienced the same thing of me before.

Usually I’m taking pills against my huge anxiety, I’m not diagnosed yet because my doctor wanted to treat my anxiety first. But since 4 I didn’t take my pills because my bottle was empty and every single day I forgot go to the pharmacy and order pills, now I realized that the hyper focus is back, yesterday I talked to my girlfriend about some podcast I watched, I just talked For 25min without her responding, spreading words on her ears (she very polite so she listened and also I think I make her sleep a little bit) So now I’m sad, because some of those aspects of adhd I identify are coming back strong… I managed to forget a little bit with my anxiety prescription because some of those symptoms were diminished, but now they are back strong, I’m think about the fact that I am experiencing adhd symptoms but I can not finally really put a name on it because I’m not officially diagnosed yet, and I don’t think there is a prescription to focus less… I feel so lonely because in my entourage no one can really understand me or help me. Btw I live alone my fiancé she’s living abroad for a while now… I’m seeking some help or comfort