I have just quit my two jobs recently and im starting a new one in November which i was super stoked about when i got it, but as time go by, im wanting to do that less and less.

Ive always wanted to dream big and start something big. Ive always believed i have the potential it takes to make a lot of money to be able to enjoy my life stress free, but as im sitting here at home with a broken patella, and all the time in the world for myself to start litteraly anything i could dream of, my head is a blank page, my energy is empty and my motivation is close to inexistant.

It made me realise two things; All i care about in this life is money. I am only motivated when money is involved and im a profound believer that if im not a millionaire by 30 i will have wasted my life away. This tought has always been a non negociable for me since i was little.

But at the same time; i am interested in nothing. I can’t get myself to start anything, to take any action, i keep doing odd jobs i hate just cause of the money it brings, and it takes all the motivation in the world to wake up, shower, and not starve myself to death cause im not even remotely motivated to make myself something to eat or even order food.

I have no idea what to do. All things i genuinely like in life have no potential of bringing me where i want in life so i loose all interest in doing them.

I feel stuck, helpless, and i can’t get myself not to think im completely mediocre because i feel like i will never live up to the expectations i have of myself.

I know im the only person who will ever be able to get myself out of this, but is this something of my own or do other people with adhd experience this?

I would love to hear about your experiences/situations.